I Just Wanna Be A Girl

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This is my 200th blog post. I am delighted to have been writing for that long. Today, I wanted to talk about my blogging journey. When I started blogging, I didn't think I would get this far. I just started as a response to my professor's challenge. It soon became something more. It became a means of expression. It helped me let go of things that were bothering me. 

Looking at the title of this blog... I started writing at a time when I felt disconnected from my feminity. I lacked female companionship and I found myself yearning for that. I may not have written much about girlhood, but the title of this blog is a reminder that every woman has the inherent right to feel feminine. She needs to know that it's okay to let herself feel small and petite and femme. She might have other interests and she might enjoy things that aren't traditionally feminine, but in the end, she always reconnects to her womanhood. This blog is a reminder of that idea. 

Apart from that, it let me explore one of my favorite things - Taylor Swift's music. I wrote around 45 posts based on her songs - that number seems small, but I adored analyzing her lyrics. Taylor's music has always brought out deep emotions from me. They can let me release my sadness or make me laugh at the top of my lungs. It felt like a fitting tribute to have her as one of my muses. 

My favorite posts were the ones where I wrote about my day. I loved talking about what I did. Even if my day was mundane, there was some element that I loved. I always made sure not to talk about a totally normal or unremarkable day. That element was a part of me. 

I also enjoyed writing about my musings. They are things I picked up from the books I read or the shows I watched. It also included my own philosophies. Recently, I attempted poetry. I don't think I would have had the confidence to write poetry - it isn't my forte - without this blog. It made me feel like I could express myself without hesitation and without fear of judgement. 

This blog also let me share my experiences and maybe... someone's life is better because I write regularly. I don't know how many people read my work regularly, but I'd really appreciate it if every one of you reading this today gave me a comment about what you think about my writing. (Comments can be anonymous or posted using a Gmail account. They can be posted from a phone or laptop.) 

It's been an amazing experience writing these posts and I hope to keep writing whenever I can. 

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