I Didn't Have It In Myself To Go With Grace

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No matter how you pushed me away
Or hid yourself away
You asked me to leave
But I couldn't 

I said I was going
But I didn't
I waited 
Day and night 

For you to come back 
How could I go?
After all we've shared 
After the secrets you've entrusted to me

So I stayed to fight 
Hurting myself in the process
All for you 
So you could feel safe 

And believe that there was someone 
Who cared enough to stay 
I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this 
But what's it for 

You still want me gone 
You want me to leave you alone 
So you can be peaceful 
Without me... 

If that isn't enough 
I still can't not check on you 
I didn't have it in myself to go with grace

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  1. Anderlin VictorMay 4, 2025 at 3:04 PM

    It is truly heartbreaking—to release someone you love simply because they no longer choose to stay. Yet life, indifferent to our sorrow, moves ever forward. And so, the one left behind must gather the fragments of grief, embrace the tides of change, and begin to shape a future without the very soul they once envisioned forever with.

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