Almost Worth It

I lit every match just to keep us warm,
Held your storms like they were mine to mourn.
I stitched up your silence with my bare hands,
You watched me drown, never learned to stand.

Gave you my light when the night got too long,
Wrote us in verses, sang you in songs.
You said I was magic — but only halfway,
Loved me like a secret you’d never quite say.

’Cause I gave my all, but it wasn’t enough,
Loved you soft in a world that was rough.
You held my heart like a paper cup,
Drank me dry, then gave me up.

You get to explode, I’m told to be calm,
Wrap your chaos up in a ribboned psalm.
But I am the silence that nobody trusts,
My emotions turn into your disgust.

You’re angry I’m angry, but I’m just so tired,
You lit the fire, then watched me expire.
I begged for the truth, but you gave me lies,
Now I’m left haunted by your cold disguise.

I scream in the dark where you can't hear a sound,
I’m not even sure if I’m still on the ground.
I’m choking on words I can’t ever say,
And you think it’s my fault when I push you away.

I stay because it’s all I’ve ever known,
I stay, but I’m hollow, I’m carved to the bone.
You cheated me once, and I begged for peace,
Now your anger’s a ghost that never will cease.

I don’t leave, I don’t run, I just stay in the haze,
Caught in the web of these endless days.
I give up the fight, I give up the plea,
But you still haunt me, you still own me.