Please Don't Try to Save Me

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Leave me be
I've been hurt before
Nothing you say will help
Something in me is just broken

Whatever you say or do 
Nothing will change 
I can't be saved
I have been broken

My spirit has crumbled
The fighter you once knew is gone
I'm just a shell of who I once was
That girl is dead

She has been buried deep
Broken, battered, and bleeding
She can't be healed
Don't waste your time

Others have tried
I believed them
They left me worse than they found me
I lost trust

I lost hope
I lost my dreams
I lost my desires
I am all I can count on

It's a hard line to walk
But I can't be revived
I have no other choice
But to live the life that's been laid out for me

The girl I once was dreamt of love
Unconditional and true
She was naive
And she has broken

The woman I am now
Lives off silence, in fear
Her strength is gone
Her soul burnt away

Please don't try to save me again
You've tried before
And failed
Look where I am now

I am defeated
I give up. 

Comments

  1. Anderlin VictorDecember 30, 2024 at 2:15 PM

    That's such a depressing poem. I wonder what made you so heartbroken and defeated that you had to write this. I hope you have someone to talk to about your bad times but remember that you are not alone.

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