Last Kiss Part 2

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I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I'd roll my eyes and then you'd pull me in
I'm not much for dancing, but for you, I did
Because I love your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

I've listened to this song a million times, but today, there was something about this song that reminded me of insecurities and the worry of not being good enough. When the singer says that she's not really into dancing, but she does for him, it feels like a metaphor for changing herself and her ideals and likes and dislikes. Then, there's the reason behind the change. 

There's this post on Instagram that shows how a relationship looks when a girl loves more and when a guy loves more. The lyrics (in my opinion) depict a relationship where the girl loves more. She ends up changing for him, but in the end, he leaves her broken and bleeding. The reason she changed was totally justified, but the reaction she received in return is devastating. 

She did so much. She set aside herself, in a way. She was worried that this guy would leave her so she changed for him. She was scared that she wasn't his usual type of girl - the kind of girl he was looking for. She was scared that he would get bored of her and leave her for someone who could give him exactly what he wanted. She was so scared that he would leave that she put everything she felt aside, whether she got the same in return or not. 

I'm sure I'm reading between the lines here, but this is just something I felt recently. 


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  1. Anderlin VictorDecember 30, 2024 at 2:29 PM

    You should never have to change yourself for other people. If they can't accept you for who you are, they never deserved you in the first place.

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